getting denied, just makes me want it more.
i keep trying, and each time push harder than before.
i can't live my life always worried about what if,
'cause what if i died tomorrow, and i never even lived?
so.. i am beyond glad that no one knows of my blogs existence. :D
srsly. cos if ppl knew i wouldnt be able to say this-
lately my self-esteem is at an all time low. D: so iknow girls go on and on about their weight and all... but i've gained. and. oh. i've gained. resutling. in. LOVE HANDLES!
*exhales* can't even admit it to myself without being ashamed. D: but yesssss i face reality. and the reality is i eat when i'm bored and that used to be okay. but it's not longer okay as i do not play tennis anymore. and so i jog in the morning. well i jog more so to have a piece of mind. as well as maximising my hours of they day. :D i've only jogged Monday and eversince... LOL wwwwwellllll i WILL JOG TOMOZ. i love my new header pic. if only i had her legs. D: i want lets that go on for days! and fit into a pair of LIGHT COLOURED JEANS! but ooohwellz. this is as good as its gonna get. i will always be a size 12 with a size 11 leeway. my fast metabolism is slowly failing me too. D: sooooo yes. i definitely need to do my jogging. not only to achieve a piece of mind- but to REMAIN a size 12. like jeez. if i jump a size... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i weight 62kg. last year i was 60kg. i contemplated that the +2kg may be boob weight? LOL but... i think i'm in denial. yeah. i'm in denial. MY GOAL 55kg. yes. 55kg by formal/asap pls.
OOOOH totally LOVING Keri Hilson's new song. more so Kanye West's bit. leaving on that note. :)
see it's definitely with entires like these... glad i didnt tell anyone of my blog's existence. Lovely!
Keep rockin', and keep knockin' Whether you Louis Vuitton it up or Reebokin' You see the hate, that they're servin' on a platter So what we gon' have, dessert or disaster?
